fastclickchic0413

Fifth week is about to start, and I'm LOVING college life. <33 I miss my dog, and my homesickness is cured with skype, so other than missing Gio I'm in paradise here ^__^ okay gotta go! 50 sketches due tuesday and I have like 15 lol




hope life is treating you well!

also, I'm on tumblr 24/7 now, mostly because I find people to fangasm about common interests with. but I plan to make an new dA sometime in the future for my college stuff   okay, ciao!

so it's official.

I'm DONE with high school!   words cannot properly describe my feelings. <3 I'm so excited for college, but I don't want t leave my friends and family behind. I know my parents will really feel it, and my dog too! I'll feel guilty at first, I know. but after that first visit back home, I think everything will settle in. I'm torn right now, whereas during school when I was struggling and my parents were on my ass about grades, I wanted nothing more than to just graduate and be done. Now that they're all sappy and crying and I'm spending more and more time with my friends as the day draws ever-closer, and my family came to see me walk...I realize this is a BIG change. most people are staying in FL, so its not too big of a deal, but I'm gonna be in a different state. 5 hours away. I can't swing by on weekends just because :/


I'll miss them, so much.



But I need this, I need to be off and on my own. I just hate having to hurt the people who love me by going so far. Still, I have friends that are going to Boston, to Chicago, etc. and think well, at least I'm not THAT far, you know? At least I could drive down one weekend every once in a while. It will kill me mileage-wise, but hey, it would be worth it.

So yes, I"m officially going to Savannah College of Art and Design with like 2/3 tuition (like $ 26,500 from scholarships plus $5500 Stafford loan out of a $31,5-something tuition) I'm sending my portfolio in again for appeals, maybe I'll get some more money even. Really glad that going to SCAD won't bankrupt my family and I can't wait to go to Hong Kong and Lacoste, France to study in their abroad program! All I need it to pay my ticket (and since my tuition etc. is mostly covered I can use money from a job to save that up) and boom! a semester in China and France. SUPER exciteddddddd!


So as I move on to the next chapter in my life, I thank everyone who has supported me, followed my artwork, read my rambling journals, or glanced at a piece of mine or two thank you! When I start college I plan to make a new account, and get a subscription ^__^ continue to follow me please! love you and Happy Memorial day! Take today to honor the troops serving and those who have served, who has lost their lives, and are POWs or MIA.   


Until next time!

It's the final stretch, and my muscles are starting to shut down. :/ I'm extremely exhausted, but also excited to be graduating, it feels surreal. In 2 months time, high school will be over for me....that's fucking crazy, and super sad because I'm going to miss my friends a lot. I'm not sure how I'll take it. I'm pretty independent, but I've known these people for like 6 years. I left NYC in 6th grade, and it hurt then too, but even more now, because I spent my teen years here, I grew into the person I am, I defined myself HERE. back then I was young and naive, and in Land O' Lakes I've survived some pretty rough times next to these people. It's so crazy to think I won't have them a drive away anymore


but I'm sooooo ready to be done with high school. I was ready a long time ago. fuck Land O Lakes High.  lol but not the people in it that made it bearable


so, I found this site called Ctrlpaint.com, and its fuckingepicawesomewin. and the creator Matt Kohr is super cool. He graduated from SCAD, and he has the exact job I want we've talked through e-mail and he's like officially my guru of conceptart/illustrator-dom.  It's divine intervention that I just happened upon his site and that he went to the college I'm 99% i'm attending this fall AND has the job I want. like wtf bro! I'm not  super religious at all, but I know when God is telling me something.


So since I'm quite tired and have a math project to finish before bed, I thought I'd just say what I want to write in blurbs.

1. scholarships makes me want to stab everyone in the face
2. guy drama makes me wan to stab myself in the face. (you watch these soaps and lifetime movies and think "wow, this broad is stupid, how did she get into this mess?" and then BOOM. you're a walking hypocrite)
3. i'm super pumped
4. I got most creative for my class's superlatives today. honestly didn't think I would since IB kids are like, secluded from the rest of the school
5. gas prices are fucking ridiculousssss
6. I wanna be swept off of my feet for once. being a hopeless romantic is so disappointing
7. there are times when I'm really spiritually aware. I dunno, I just feel so at peace with everything around me, I feel connected to something I call "the hum of life".  
8. yoga is fun
9. I will be a night owl until the day I die.
10. I need to go on a movie spreee

I can just feel that this year is going to be great for me. I graduate this year, so I'm really excited for what's in store. I'm most likely going to create a new deviantART account when i start college, but until then I'll enjoy fastclikchic0413

hope this year brings you artistic inspiration, enrichment, and nourishment and you blossom further into a wonderful artiste

Spent the day with fam, watching shows and doing art pieces for my portfolio. I'm thoroughly enjoying my Christmas gifts, and trying not to think about the school work I still have to worry about anyway, it feels like the break just started, I don't want it to end in just a week! But I feel reinvigorated and ready to take on the rest of my senior year so I can GET THE out of stupid high school  lol getting my license and hopefully visiting Georgia so I can decide if I'm going to SCAD Savannah or Atlanta.

Other than that, I'm just chillin' peeps B) 2010 was fun but I've never been more ready for a new year

I feel uncomfortable and anxious about something. I don't know what it is, its that feeling that you're forgetting something, but you can't remember what! I hate it.

I just can't wait until Sunday, then until Thanksgiving Break, then Winter Break. Anything in between then isn't on my radar right now. I just don't want to think about anything else other than my art but right now that's the last thing I have time for, it's extremely stressful :/ I made a promise to myself that by my 18th birthday I'd be prepared to start Clockwork, and I'm really close, close enough that I WILL be ready, but what I'm worrying about is having the time these days. There just aren't enough hours in the day to be myself anymore. It's crazy.

Well, that's all. I mostly updated because I've had that journal since August. It was getting on my nerves. Hope your life is honey and that my good wishes find you through cyberspace.

Love and Good Riddance,
Ana


P.S. - I have incredible friends. I don't mean to sound biased, but I feel like I struck gold meeting the people I have so far in my life. I'm lucky to meet such beautiful people, truly.